Monday, December 29, 2008
We had dinner here one night; we hung out at this coffee shop yesterday morning; we went to this movie last night.
How awesome is that? Very! |
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Huz finally got a dutch oven (no, it's not a Le Creuset - too expensive, but good reviews all the same, thankyouverymuch).
And Santa got me a macro lens! I was so surprised and delighted. Here's some experimental shots I took this morning.
My mom just called to say she boarded her flight to come and see us! Yay!!
I hope everyone has enjoyed a happy, safe and merry day. |
Monday, December 22, 2008
Somebody help us!!
So far I haven't gotten signs of the flu (knock on a forest!), so I'm taking care of two sickos wearing a mask. I'm hot. On the bright side, my scar looks pretty good, no?
We're really hoping and praying that my mom makes the standby flight here on Christmas Day. There's no way I want her to get sick, but we really need and deserve someone to come and take care of us. We also need someone to bring some Christmas cheer to us, because we aren't feeling any. If she makes the flight I know she'll be bearing gifts, cheer and love like only a mom can. Sometimes you just really need your mom. |
Saturday, December 20, 2008wikipedia has it right when they explain it as rice krispies under the skin. It also explains why when I blow my nose my neck puffs up like a bull frog. It's supposed to close on it's own, so I just have to do all I can to keep the hole closed (no coughing, no heavy lifting). All of this to say that I'm still not feeling well and now I've been advised not to fly on an airplane, lest I get a collapsed lung because of the low pressure. Freaking Fantastic. There go our fun Colorado Christmas plans with our families. There goes the spa day with my mom and 2 sisters where we were going to get massages and pedicures. There goes the two nights in a bed and breakfast for Huz and I so we could celebrate our belated 14th wedding anniversary while Grandmo watches Claire. There goes Christmas as I know it and love it.
We considered driving, but it's a 17 hour drive (if you don't stop), but we have a 14 month old who likely would not take too lightly to being strapped in a car seat for 17-20 hours. And, on top of that, Claire has been throwing up for 2 days now. We don't know why. She's acting normally and has no fever, but she keeps throwing up and we keep having to bathe her and wash all of her bedding. I just hope she doesn't choke on her vomit as she's sleeping.
I am so depressed. I have to ask why this is all happening to me and what I did to deserve this. I simply don't know. |
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
The wound looks pretty good, no?
I tried to go to work for the first time today but only made it three hours because I was struck with a sudden onset of severe throat and chest pain. I went to the Dr., got a chest xray, was told I have an upper respiratory infection and was sent home with yet more drugs to take. I don't think I've felt this much pain since childbirth, no kidding. If this is what life is for me now, somebody just shoot me.
Back to bed I go. Sniff.
Sunday, December 14, 2008|
Friday, December 12, 2008
Anyway, here are some pictures from the awesome Thyroid Bon Voyage party I had last weekend with my girlfriends. There was much drinking, laughing, secret-sharing, and even some dancing. I had a blast and hope to do it again for fun and not to wish another organ goodbye.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008|
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Monday, December 8, 2008
Hours before surgery: 4
Hours since I last ate or drank: 13
Hours until I can eat or drink: 8 (at least)
I'm STARVING and THIRSTY!
Such a whiner, I know.
Feeling kinda nervous - cried when I hugged Claire Bear goodbye as Huz took her to daycare, cried when I got off the phone with my mom. Had weird dreams last night (due to nerves, I guess). But most of all? I just freaking hungry, y'all. |
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Sure, there are still fears about getting my throat cut open (I've never had surgery before so this is an expected reaction, right?) and concerns over what another very visible scar will do to my self esteem, but I'm not freaking out, self medicating, or anything crazy. No, my reactions have been really benign (ha ha), mostly internal with the occasional meltdown on the phone with my mom or friend or crying on Huz's shoulder once or twice (okay, maybe more like three or four times). I'm still successfully working at my full-time job, going out to lunch with friends, and am even throwing myself a Thyroid Bon Voyage party tonight with 6 of my closest girlfriends. So, I'm fine. I am just using photography as a creative expression of all that I've felt over the past month - all of which are normal, justifiable feelings and emotions. The second set of photos is supposed to be disturbing - it's supposed to evoke the emotions that I've been going through and it's supposed to make you respond in kind.
Oh, and to the reader who told me to get of my "pitty potty"? Bite me. |
Thursday, December 4, 2008Great Dane bit my forehead when I was only two years old. And now I'll have another scar to add to it.
This second set is more about fear and anger. I also wanted to express how helpless and small I feel: subject to something else. That's why I put the camera at a high angle above me and, funnily, it makes me look like I have no neck in several shots which only underscores the loss and powerlessness I feel.
Monday, December 1, 2008
It is the last Monday
I will have a neck unmarred.
The last Monday
I will have all pieces of me.
The last Monday
I will have cancer.